She Has Made Me Omnipresent

In Past
She
Carried My Image
In Her Mind
And
I Was Always There
Without Being There

In Her Home
In Her family
Like A Intrusion
She Could Do Without

At Present

She
Carries My Words
Like A Baggage
Where Ever She Goes
In Her Office
In Her In Laws Home
In Her Husbands Home
In Her Parents Home


Had She Created
A Home Of Her Own
Where
She Could Live Freely
Without My Presence
She Would Then
Have None To Blame
But Ironically She Wanted
Her Life Partner
To Do The Same For Her

A House Can Be Built
By Bricks And Mortar
But It Takes Trust
To Build A Home



She
Makes Me Omnipresent
In Her Life
And That
Makes Me
Pity Her
Time And Again

Step

One Wrong Step
To One Right Step
The Distance Is Just
One Step

Replacement

You Are Replacement Of My Sister
The Age Was Just Twenty Five
You Are Replacement Of My Friend
The Age Was Just Thirty Five
I love You
The Age Was Just Thirty Seven
Now Who Was Being Replaced

Still Wondering

His Emotions Her Poems

Few Words He Spoke
Every Word Was Precious
From Each Word The Emotions
That Flowed
She Created A Poem
Her Poems Are Merely
His Emotions Fontalized

From There To Here

Getting Engaged
Got Married
Forgot When Got Engaged
Then Forgot Why Got Married
Life Became A Routine
To live To Breed New Life
Sleep To Breed
Wake Up
And Move To Earn
Earn To Live
Yet Forgot To Live
Then The Miracle Happened
Someone Reminded The Day
Of Engagement
Someone Reminded
The Reason To Live
Someone Reminded
The Need
Not To Just Love
But Be Loved
And Yet
That Someone Was
Forgotten
As Was The Engagement
And The Marriage

When I Miss You The Most

People Miss Others
When They Are Alone
I Miss You
When I Am
Surrounded With People
I Miss You Because
You Are Not There
Where You Should Be
Its Not In Loneliness
That
I Desire Or Miss Or Need You
Its When There Is Fun , Laughter
That I Miss Your Presence
Its Then My Mind Questions Me
Why Is He Not Here ?
When All Others Are Here
I So Much Wish You Were
With Me Today Sharing The Bond

Suffocation

She Closed The Doors On Him
He Who Would Feel Choked
At The Mere Thought
Of A Closed WIndow .
And She Said GO
Live Your Life
Every Time He Would Close
The Door On Her
She Would Leave A Window Open
So That He
Would Not Feel Suffocation
But
Now She Is Tired Of Opening
The Doors And Windows
That He Kept Closing
So Now Its Her Decision
To Close The Doors On Him

Unwanted Dreams

Its May Not Be
In My Hands
To Stop You
From Coming
In My Dreams
But I Can Open My Eyes
Awake My Self And Stop
To Dream
Unwanted Dreams
Its In My Hands
To Save My Present
From Dreams Of My Past
To Secure A Better Future

So I Never Bothered

The Time Has Come
To Set Right The Issues
That Have Been Lying
Dormant In Some Remote Corner
Of The Mind And Soul
Yes I Knew
Your Limitations And
That I will Not Get Anything
Still I Gave Everything
My Time , My Mind , My Soul
Without Any Assurance
Because You Were Empty
You Needed Someone
Who Had Time For You
On Whose Mind Only You Were There
Whose Soul Connected With Your Soul
Yet When It Came To Surrendering My Body
I Asked For Just One Assurance That
There Will Be No Leaving Me Again
That There Will Be No One Else
You Will Unite Your Body With Again
You Committed Never To Leave
You Committed That You Will Be There
If Ever I Will Need
You Committed Not To Share
Your Body Again With Anyone
Other Then Me
I Trusted Your Commitment
To Share With You
The Most Beautiful Gift My Body
You Said It Was
The Best Moment Of Your Life
Also That Prior To Our Union
You Never Realized
That Physical Relationships
Could Be So Much Fun
Still Be So Soulful
You Said Those Images
Will Last For A Life Time
I Enjoyed The Happiness I Could Give
But
Then You Walked Out
You Wanted to Prove To Your Better Half
That Nothing Had Happened
You Wanted To Prove To Your Loved Ones
That We Never Shared Physical Intimacy
When I Reflect Back I Realize
That You Neither Cheated Me Nor Her
You Cheated Your Ownself
You Cheated Your Goodness
By Lying To Both Of Us
I Never Crucified You
As You Crucified Your Ownself
You Nailed Your Soul
With The Nails of Lie , Deceit And Distrust
So You Had Prove To The World
Your Innocence And Truthfulness
I Just Had To Prove To Myself
My Truthfulness And Honesty
Yes You Can Call
The Time We Shared Together
A Mistake And Live Happily
Or You Can Even Deny
We Spent Any Time Together
Still The Truth Will Never Change
We Shared Physical Intimacy
And Enjoyed Our Togethrness
In Your Own Self You Know
You Are Wrong And Unjust To Me
By Being Just To All
So I Never Bothered To Prove
What Everyone Else Doubts

"Reflections Of Soul " 2005 August

Tell Me My Soulmate

I Protect I Become A Coward
I Dont Protect I Become A Liar
I Want To Remain "Me"
If I Become A Liar , I Am Hurting Him
If I Become A Coward , I Am Hurting Her
I Am Not Like Other Woman
Who Chases A Man
I Am Not Like Other Woman
Who Possess A Man
I Am A Woman , Who Loves A Man
Because He Loves Her
Tell Me My Soulmate ,What Should I Do

"Thank You , !! For What ??"

For Letting Me Love You
When You Needed Love ,
The Most
For Letting Me Be With You
When Your Loneliness
Was Engulfing You,
The Most
For Letting Me Caress You
Thru Words
When Your Emotions Ran Deep
The Most
For Letting Me Ruffle
Your Hair
When You Wanted It ,
The Most
For Letting Me Touch You
When You Were Starved
For A Woman's Touch,
The Most
And Thank You ,
My Beloved
For Loving Me
And Accepting It
To Yourself
When It Mattered
To me ,
The Most .

"Right"

I Have Never Given
Any Such "Right" To You
Thru Spoken Words
That
What Ever You Will Say
I Will Abide
Still
When Ever You Said
Anything , I Abided
Because
I Firmly Believe
That You
Have A "Right"
On Me
The Definition Of "Right"
Is Different
From The Language
Relationships Speak
Few Relationships
Are Made By "Right"
And In Few Relationships
There Is "Right"
Relationships
Which Have No Name
Have No "Right"
But
Have "Love"In Them
And
The Strings Of Love
Tie Nameless Relatiosnhips
Into A Bond
For Life
And Those Who Accept
These Relationships
Are Never Alone
In This World
But
They Are Different
From This World

LifeTime

Time
You Teach Every One
That Movement Is Necessary
To Grow
Life
You Teach Everyone
That Move With Time
And That Is Why
LifeTime
Means Everything
One Word Encompassing
The Whole World

The More The Dust Is

When Ever Summer Comes
The Dust Storms Also Come
And I Wipe Clean The Dust
With A Wet Wipe
Then Why Am I Unable To clean
The Dust Of Dates
That Has Gathered In My Mind
I Had Heard
That When There Is Lot Of Dust
Every Thing Becomes Blurred
And Slowly The Dust Makes
Every Thing Invisible
But I Dont Think
This Is Ture
Because The More The Dust Is
The More Visible The Marks Are

Knock

The Wait
Is On
For
The Happiness
To Knock
The Door
Of The Tears
The Life
Is About
To Finish

A Life Time Is Spent

Every Heart Wants
The Other Heart
T0 Understand
But How Many Hearts
Understand Their Own Heart
Every Mind Wants
To Change
The Other Mind
But How Many Minds
Don't Show Their Minds
To Others
A Life Time Is Spent
To Understand Others
Wish We Tried
To Understand
Ourselves

Ritual

The Pain Does Not Recede
By Saying
The Love Does Not Increase
By Saying
Then Why There Is A Ritual
To Say
To Listen

Words Have Become A Bridge

Words
Have
Become
A Bridge
She Writes
To Release
The Pain
In Her
He Reads
To Release
The Pain
In Him
Her Agony
Is Painful
Her Words
Are Bitter
And True
His Agony
Is Unsaid
He Has
No Words
Neither
Bitter
Nor True
And
They Stand
Back To Back
On
The Bridge
That Her
Words
Has Made
Sharing
The
Unsaid

Foot Prints

Your Foot Prints
On The Net
Tell Me
You Were Here
The Need To Know
What I Am Doing
And How I Am
Brings YOU Here
But Does It Surve
Any Purpose
If My FootPrints
Are Not Here
Will That Mean
I Have Withered Away
And If That Happens
Then What Will
Happen To You
Will You Keep
Tracing The Foot Prints
That I Am Leaving
On The Net
Till You Wither Away
Do You Ever Wish
The Foot Prints That
We Are Leaving Alone
Should Have Been
Left Together
Then We Would Not Have
Whithered Alone
But
The Pain And Agony
Of Tracing Alone
Each Others FootPrints
Would Have Withered

"Reflections Of Soul" 2007 June

Pain

Only Those Who are Pained
Understand What Pain Is
All Others Equate
Unhappiness To Pain

When All Questions Are Useless

Some Times In Life
There Comes A Phase
When All Questions Are Useless
Rather The Life Itself
Becomes An Useless Question

Not Only Words Even The Silence Becomes Silent

Today There Is No Tear In My Eyes
Today There Is No Emotion In My Heart
My Pain Has Stilled In Me
When The Pain Is Stilled
Life Becomes Simple
Not Only Words
Even The Silence Becomes Silent
The Life Moves
Without A Turn
Without A Hope
Because The Destination
Of The Stilled Pain
Is Death
Oh My Death
Please Come And
Embrace My Pain
My Pain Is Waiting
For You To come

The Line Is Thin But Its There

The Ghost Of My Past Never Lets Me Rest In Peace
And My Present Is Even Worst Then My Past
So Will The Ghost Of Present Haunt My Future
When Will This Cycle Get Over
Am I Destined To Be Always Alone
Without Human And Emotional Support
If Its So
Then Why Do Illusions Of Relationships
Haunt Me
Why I Come Across Relationships
Where I Give the Best
But I Get Nothing
Not Even The Full Fillment
Of Giving The Best
Everyone Has Someone Or Something
To Fall Back
Then Why Am I Alone
Sometimes The Loneliness Is All Engulfing
Am I Unhappy
No I am Not
Because
There Is A Difference
Between Unhappiness And Hurt
The Line Is Thin But Its There

Its A Promise

You Said
" Its My Desicion
That I Will Not Leave Her
Because May Be I Love Her More
Than I Love You"
Fine At Last I Came To Know
That Love Can Also Be Compared
It Can Also Be Weighed
On A Scale
I Was Finding Relationship In Love
Because I Did Not Get Love From Relationships
But What Were You Seeking
With A Measuring Balance
What Were You Trying To Weigh
Which One Of The Two
Is Good For You
Some Day When We Meet
On Some Road Of Life
Its A Promise
That I Will See
Your Ledger Balance
But Not Today
As Today I have to
Buy A Weighing Balance
Who Knows When I May Need It
To Weigh The Love

"Reflections Of Soul " 2007 4th May

Countless Moments

In Every Moment Of Intimacy
When My Body And Heart
Desired An Loving Touch
You Pushed My Hand Away
Yet I Never Pushed You
I Waited For You To Understand
That I Also Need Few Moments
To Call My Own
You Did Not Understand
The Time Understood
And Moved OnWith Me
Though Moments
Are Countless And True
But They Are Not Mine

Flood

The Dam Of Patience Cracked
Water Flowed From The Eyes
Hope Submerged

Loss

In The Meliu Of Life
You Lost Your Goodness
And I Lost You
I Have No Regrets
Why I Lost You
But I Have Deep Regrets
Why You Lost Your Goodness

Clouds

When The First Cloud Came
I Thought It Was An Floating Cloud
And Will Float Away Soon
When The Second Cloud Came
I Thought It was An Haze
And Will Clear Soon
When The Third Cloud Came
I Thought It was An Storm
And Will Pass Soon
When The Fourth Cloud Came
I Realized Clouds Of Deceit
Have Veiled The Picture Completely
Don't Wait For The Lightning To Strike
Before The Clouds Become Too Dark
Black And Sinister
Rise Up And You Will Find
Those You Thought
Had Deserted You
Are Just Waiting
To Embrace The Real You

It’s Your Birthday Today

It’s Your Birthday Today
A Day Parents Rejoice
Because You Came In Their Life
It’s Your Birthday Today
And I Am Away
Not Because
I cant Be With You
But Because
I Can’t Be Myself
When I Will Be With You
I So Much Wanted To Come
With A Cake And A Bouquet
And Give You A Tight Hug
And A Peck On The Cheek
And In The Midst Of
Your Office Colleagues
I Would Stand Tall And Rejoice
The Moment When You Will Cut
The Cake And Offer It to Your Friends.
But I Know You Will
Not Want Me To Celebrate
Your Birthday Like This
And I Dont Want To Spoil
Your Day Your Happiness
For The Happiness That
I Could Have Easily Got
Had I Come To Your Office
I Cant Console Myself
By Saying
May Be Some Other Time
Because I Know
In This Life There Will Be
No Other Time
When I Would Be Able To Rejoice
With You ,
Your Moments Of Happiness
Neither As A Friend
Nor As A Woman
So I am Taking Up The Option
You Like The Best
And I Am Wishing You
A Very Happy Birthday
Thru My Written Words
May God Always Shower
The Best On You
May You Always Give Happiness
To the People Who Matter
The Most For You
May You Be Always
A Nice Son
A Nice Brother
A Nice Husband
A Nice Father
And May I Always Be Able To
Rise Above The Normal
Human Desires
And Bless You
So My Dearest
Wish You A very Happy Birthday.
With Love And Good Wishes
"Reflections Of Soul " 2007 2nd May

Turn Back

Sometimes Just Turn Back
May Be In The Forest Of
Beautiful Memories
You May Still Find Someone
Just Waiting For You .
Sometimes Just Turn Back
To Realise
That The Memories Have Not Faded
Someone Is Still Keeping Them Alive For You.
Sometimes Just Turn Back
To Find
That Someone Has Stilled The Time For You
Sometimes Just Turn Back
To Feel
A Silent Heart
Just Beating For You
Just Turn Back Sometimes
And You May Find Someone
Waiting For You To
Turn Back

May Be That Is Why

For His "Happiness"
She Did A Lot
To Make Her "Happy"
He Did A Lot
Here Is The Difference
Of Her Thinking
And His Thoughts
Any Thing Done
For the Happiness
Of Your Beloved
Is Right
Any Thing Done
To Keep
Your Beloved Happy
Is Wrong
May Be That Is Why
In What Ever He Does
He Always Feels
He Is Wrong

So Let Us Celebrate The Life

Some Times Write To Me
Even When There Is Nothing To Write
Some Times Call Me
Even When There Is Nothing To Say
Some Times Be With Me
Even When There Is No Reason
Some Times Say You Love Me
Even When You Don't
Why Always Do Everthing
With Reasoning
Why Always Do Everything
For A Reason
I Am There
You Are There
So Let Us Celebrate The Life
By Being Our True Self

To Live

One Has To Live
As The Date
With Death Is Predestined
And None Can Die Before Death
So To LiveKeep The Good Work Going

Before I Become Ethereal

For Last Couple Of Years
You Were In My Life
Now Again The Same Distance
The Same Lack Of Time
The Same Routine Of Life
And Your Responsibilties
But
My Life will Again Take a Turn
I Hope This Is The Last Turn
Before I Become Ethereal

I Wish My Life Was A Slate

I Wish My Life Was A SlateI Could Rub And Write At Will
If Not Life At Least My Heart Should Have Been A Slate
So That I Could Easily Wash And Clean
Those emotions Which Have become Old and Redundent
But The Scratches On Heart Or On Slate
Will Not Get Erased By Washing Or Rubbing
The Old Slate Has To Be Changed
And The Pinning Heart Has to learn to Forget

Age

Age
A reason to give up all fights and "Let Go" .
A reason to accept defeat with grace.
A reason to give back to nature .
Age
Also a reason to surrender .
Love
A reason to Age with Fulfilment
Death
A reason to accept Age.